Love and fear play a ruthless game of hide and seek under my skin. Some hours the less desirable of the two makes itself into the very marrow of my being. Some days, love simply does not win and I ask for another chance to trust, another breath to make new, another sun to say good morning. These days in transition test the very core of my being, forcing me to dig deep, trust in ourselves and trust in the greater good.
I still would not choose the little security we had in Wyoming and the unhappiness that accompanied it. However, starting from the very bottom, even surrounded by family, in my favorite place in the world, is the most exciting, scary and humbling thing I have ever done. It seems there is a fine line between following our dreams and just being stupid. But, I would rather risk feeling the later, to know we pursued the fires that burn inside our chests.
Despite my heightened sense of emotions and unease the last week, things really are falling into place, perhaps just a little slower than I had hoped, although as slow as one could expect when starting from scratch. This month we found a great midwife to support me in my third trimester! We are planning a home birth, yet we are still searching for a place to nest. Until then we are staying with my sister and a clan of 8+ the 3 of us. (It’s not as crazy as you would think!) I am teaching dance as much as this growing belly will allow, and hubs is pursuing a dream, turned business idea he has had for a very long time. I am making vegetable juice every morning and eating way too many treats during the day. I justify all those treats with all the wonderful nutrients I am getting in my morning glass. These vegetable juices are my constant right now. They fill me back up with color and life and help me feel a little more stable in the midst of so much unknown. I am not only grateful for an awesome sister who has opened her home, but for one who happens to own an awesome juicer and always keeps her fridge stocked with an abundance of colors from the ground. This juice is one of our favorites…
Carrot Apple Grapefruit Beet Juice
Makes 60 oz
12 large carrots
2 large grapefruits
2-3 large beets
Thumb size chunk of ginger (optional)
Thumb size chunk of turmeric (optional)
Wash all fruits and vegetables. Peel lemon and grapefruit by hand. With a grater, peel beets, tumeric and ginger. Cut fruits and vegetables into pieces that are suitable to fit and feed through your juicer. Drink immediately to absorb the most nutrients. You can keep in fridge for 3 days.